Religion.

I has none.

I wanted to blog about my views when it comes to religion. I am disabling comments because I know some people will argue with me and get all pissed off some more. And if you're a die-hard christian, leave now.


I've had a pretty wow day. I've debated with someone about whether or not god should stay in schools. I think he should not because not everybody has the same religious views.

Since this is my blog, I'm gonna share my views because my views really need to be out there. I'm always worried about what someone would say BUT I could care less anymore. My dad doesnt give a damn because I'm an adult and I can make my own choices. I haven't told him but the hundreds of times I've turned him down on the offer to go to church should say something. I did go once, Christmas Eve, I actually hated it. I felt so out of place and I almost felt like every christian can detect an Atheist and that all eyes were on me. But I know they werent. We saw pictures of space and how one nebula looked like a cross. NO IT DIDNT. It looked like an "X".

So, yeah. Needless to say, I wont ever go back.

I used the term Atheist up there. I dont necessarily think I'm 100% Atheist but I dont think that I'm 100% Agnostic either. I know that there's no higher being but if you can prove it, then I might. And dont be like this lady, asking me where the trees came from.


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"How can you walk outside and look at the trees and the sky and be like...'there's no god'."

I swear, Matt (the one in the joker hat) sounds like he could be a preacher. Or pastor. Whatever. I love the conversation about bananas. I know the video takes a while to load but so worth it. And it's non-offensive for a believer or non-believer to watch. I promise.

I also believe in Charles Darwin's theory of Evolution. I believe that all animals have evolved from each other and that we all started as a cell when a chemical reaction happened way back when.

So, down the the real question.

If, and this is a big IF, there is a god, then who or what made him?

The answer is simple.

God is like every one of us. Just a simple, ordinary person. To you christians out there, you'll say that god made everything, right? Well, if we look at this my way, people made god. Taking this mathematically:

If people made god
And god made everything
Then people made everything.

Kind of like this:

If a=b
And b=c
Then a=c

People made the pyramids of Egypt, the Great Wall of China, the Berlin Wall, the Sphinx, all these MAN-MADE structures. God didnt do shit. I even think the Grand Canyon is considered man-made. I'm not positive.

If you're still reading, cool. I'm almost done. I have one more video by the same people in the other video except with a different caller. This video uses my newest form of defense if someone asks me why I dont believe in god.


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If you didnt catch it. It's the unicorn question. But I love how that works.

A couple other things I have to say.

When it comes to the Pledge of Allegiance, and if this is ever put up for a vote, I would vote for the words "one nation under god" to be taken out. It's assumed that everyone believes in god and believes in the same things in this nation when there are many different religions across our 50 states. Some have different gods, some dont have gods like me. I find it offensive to naturally think everyone thinks the same way.

Another thing. I'm getting tired of all these text message chain letters telling me to pray for the dead. 1) I dont pray and 2) why bother for the dead? Isnt it a little late? I understand that we now have the swine flu epidemic that's already killed a child but that's part of life. We're born and then we die.

Before I end this, and if you're still reading and have the same general views I do, I advise you to check out this site: www.officialgodfaq.com

Just trust me on it. It's a good site. Go to it.

That's all I have to say. For now.

Good day!

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Busted.

So, as our almost usual Tuesday night routine, a couple friends and I had a drinking party. There was only four of us drinking. We were playing a drinking game called Waterfall. It was quite fun. Was? Yes. It's not even midnight? I know. WE GOT BUSTED. While you play waterfall, you have a straight shot of alcohol in the middle of the table. Whoever loses the game takes a shot. During our third game, we had the shot out in the middle of the table, and Security walks in. Well, we were all like fuck. Apparently the dorm door was open a tad bit and we were being a little loud. Brad, who is a student coordinator/RA, called us in to security just for being loud. Well, us being stupid, had the door open and Security walks up, sees the shot glass, pulls out his pad of tickets and that was pretty much that. He poured out the shot and what we had in our cups for the game. And then, he looked through the freezer and our stupid asses left over half a bottle of Vodka in the freezer. Well, you know what happens. Security finds it, dumps it down the drain. Then writes us all fines. Julia and I were on our first fine which is $75 plus we have to take an alcohol test. Heather and Marianne, and Jody who made the mistake of coming out to the living room, are on their second which is a $100 fine plus an 8 hour class on alcohol and drug abuse. Well, Jody, who had just walked out as Security walked in, is determined not to pay her fine. She says the four of us have to pay it.

Sorry, Jody, but I think you should pay it. Marianne had to pay for her first and she didn't drink. Fair is fuckin fair. I'd be more than happy to pay for the vodka and gas you wasted since we lost half the bottle but I ain't paying part of your fine. You didnt have to go get it, you didnt have to walk out into the living room. I plan to tell my dad the truth and I betcha he'll say the same thing because I'm broke and I'm gonna have to ask him for the money.

That's harsh but hey, so is life.

Yeah I'm a little ticked so this post is short.

Good fucking night.

Randoms.

After going to bed around 2:30 am this morning and not getting up until 8am, I'm feeling pretty good. Wide awake, no big deal. I had me some breakfast at the Caf which consisted of some eggs and biscuits and gravy and 3 tater tots because the jerk ahead of me took the other 20 that were left. Oh well, I'm in a good mood so he can't ruin it.

Why am I posting so early? Because right now I'm sitting in class and I usually don't pay attention and I have an A in this class so I started bringing my computer to stumble so I have something to keep me occupied.

I was messing with my imagination prompt generator and one of the things was "Why later?"
-Which is a good question. I always say "later" a lot, as in "I'll do it later". I started thinking, "Why not now?" It's just a good as time as any. Saying you'll do it later puts it off which brings about procrastination and then nothing gets done because the longer you put it off, the harder it is to do it. With it being the end of the school year and homework is starting to pile up, I'm going to try and not say that I'll do it later so much. For example, since January, in the class I'm sitting in now (Intro to Business) we've had an assignment to write 5 papers by May 6th. I said I would do it later because I have so much time to do them. Well, now it's 3 months later and I have less than 2 weeks to do them. Don't say later if you have the opportunity to do it right then.

I started going through my prompts again and the next one decent I found was "If you have roommates, what did you learn living with them?"
-Being 2 hours away from home 5 days a week, I live on campus with 2 other girls: Nancy and Kayla. They're alright most of the time. They can be really loud when they're drunk at 3 in the morning. At the beginning of the semester, we got along great. Now, we're kind of hating on each other. Nancy's the one that has sex with her boyfriend all the time. And Kayla just blames me for shit that aint mine. Like last night, she told me to clean out the drain in the bathtub. 1) I don't shed. 2) It was clearly to long to be mine.
-But I've learned that living with 2 other girls - and these dorms can hold up to 4 people - is a nightmare. There's that 'time of the month' issue, we go through toilet paper like it's going out of style, if someone is in the bathroom taking a shower/getting ready in the morning then it'll be about an hour or so before you can get in there just to go pee. Although we're clean and tidy (without looking in our rooms) we still argue over who's mess is who's or who cleans what for room check. Honestly, I think life would be easier being a guy because they dont have that 'time of the month' issue, if there's a mess - most likely it's whoever's deal, life is pretty much about fun/adventures/video games. In Sociology, my teacher has things to prove guys have it easier. I dont remember what but, if you're a guy, you'll know.

One more prompt that I found during my thoughts about the last prompt is "Find a quote that moves you and write it down. Why does it move you?"
-Lately, I've been stumbling just to find some inspirational quotes to write down and collect. I dont have a whole lot yet because they're hard to find sometimes but I have a few that I'm moved by. One in particular:

~*~Your vision will become clear when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.~*~ By - Carl Jung

I like this quote simply because it's true. Looking inside your heart makes you see what you're made of and what you're capable to do. Not doing that causes you to dream, somewhat, of yourself. Listening to and looking in your heart will be important when you become an adult because as a young adult, your future is around the corner. Soon, if not now, you have to make decisions and choices for yourself. In order to make the right decisions and the right choices, you have to listen to your heart. It always talks. It's like in cartoons and movies when someone is faced with a tough decision or a situation, there's always the Good Angel and the Evil Angel. Your heart is the Good Angel and sometimes, your brain is the Evil one. If you feel something is right - do it. If you think about it, soon you'll give yourself a Pro/Con list and then end up doing what is wrong because you talked yourself out of doing something right. Happens to me all the time so this is a true story.

I got out of class early today. By 10 minutes but thats awesome when it comes to this teacher. So now I'm sitting in the library waiting for lunch because I still have one more class at 12. After that I can go home! It's suppose to rain today tho so hopefully I can beat the storm because driving on the highway in the rain is like .. no.

I'm running out of things to talk about and my prompt generator says its tired again. I'll probably post later, more than likely since today's not over and I dont know what I'm gonna do tonight if anything. Yep.

So, have a good day!

Good times.

So. I'm still awake. Why? Because I had a 4 hour nap today. Why? Well, I had a really short night. Why? Because I got trashed.

That's right. My (usual) weekly drinking party was Wednesday night. My friends Jody and Marianne (and me of course) traveled to Missouri to get some alcohol. We had to bring Jody's friend, Donte, to actually buy it because like any of us are old enough yet. So we got a big bottle of Vodka, 2 bottles of Mountain Dew (because Vodka straight is like drinking finger nail polish remover) and 2 bottles of Sunkist (a fizzy screwdriver - which is orange juice and vodka). Our ORIGINAL plan was to drink half the bottle of vodka wednesday night and drink the other half tonight (Thursday night since technically right now it's Friday). Well, that didnt really happen. I was over at Jody and Marianne's dorm with their roommates Heather and Jessica. Jessica stayed in her room while we drank tho (thank god or else something would've went down last night). Heather and Jessica have this extreme hate relationship. Get them drunk and someone's gonna start throwing punches. But nothing did so that's a plus. Anyway, their neighbor, Julia, came over (like always) and we started playing beer pong, technically vodka/mountain dew pong. Julia gets bored real fast. Suddenly, she was like, "Who wants to do shots with me?" No one would because we're not that stupid. BUT Marianne and I gave in and then three of us had like 4 or 5 shots. And this is straight vodka shots. It doesn't take that much vodka to fuck you up good. So the three of us were all loopy and shit. Apparently I started dancing and Julia ... well I'm not sure where she was. Marianne started talking to herself. After our nice vodka shots, we were down to like a fourth of the bottle of vodka left when the guys came over. Sooo, Julia, me, Jody, and the guys (Courtney - yes he's a dude - and Jeremy) started taking shots with what was left. I think each of us had about 5 or 6 more. Overall I had about 10 or 11 straight vodka shots. If you know 4 is enough to do you in for the night, try 10. I think it turned out to be a great night. Especially when us girls turned out to be tougher than the guys when taking shots. Them pansies had to have something to drink right afterwards - which makes the vodka go down easier - but if you're gonna do it, be tough about it! So once the vodka was gone, which only took us like 5 hours to finish (which is good timing for 7 people) we didn't wanna call it a night. SO we pulled some strings and a couple more guys came over with a 30-pack of Keystone Light - beer - and we played some REAL beer pong. By the way, if you start drinking beer, NEVER drink Keystone Light. That is just disgusting. It's like drinking fizzy piss. It's so nasty. Learn from me - dont drink it. It may be the cheapest stuff but trust me, it's worth it to put forth a few extra bucks and get the good stuff. But I guess when you're drunk, you don't really care as long as there's alcohol in your hand.

Needless to say, I woke up this morning extremely hungover.

We didn't drink again tonight because we were all still feeling it around the time we usual start so we settled for a drinking night next week. But man, I was sitting in my sociology class this morning and, even after I took a shower, I still smelled like beer and vodka. I was so sick that just thinking about how nasty both of them were that I almost up-chucked in the class room. But I held my stomach. I managed to make it through my classes - only had 2 but their were spread apart which didn't help. And, to piss me off more, Jessica - whom we all hate now - didn't even go to class this morning. Out of the 7 of us drinking, the only sober one - Jessica, didnt have a drop of anything to drink - DIDNT GO TO CLASS. Every single one of us drinkers toughed it out. So now we're all pissed off at her which nobody blames us for. I heard from Jody (who's Jessica's roommate) that Jessica's first class was at 9.30am and she woke up at 9.15am claiming that she didnt have enough time to get to class. It's a fucking 5 minute walk or a 5 second drive so she had time to get up, throw clothes on and go. What made it worse, she had 3 classes today and skipped them all "because she was too tired."

Well, Jessica, if you're reading this, I have two words for you - FUCK. YOU. And by the way, none of us did anything to you last night so you have no reason to call us irritating. You could've easily left the dorm and hung out with your stupid boyfriend, who, by the way, is in fact a jerk. I'm going to agree with your sister's husband. From what I hear, you'll be screwed in the long run.

Phew. Now I feel better.

I'm getting sort of sleepy and I have a new idea. Instead of a song of the day, I'm changing it to video of the day. Could be a song or a random video. This time it's a random video.



Ha. Love it.

Have a good day/night/weekend/insert ending word here!

Prompts + YIM = pissed?

In order to make Chase happy, I have to post everyday.

Now, how can I possible come up with better stuff to talk about every single day other than what's been going on? Because in Highland, it's the same thing every day.

So, I have this Imagination Prompt Generator to tell me what to post about and this is my first time using it. If you bloggers out there wanna use it sometime, I stuck the link to it at the end of the post.

My first prompt was: What does life mean to you?
Well, when it comes to life, to me, it means that everyone should find their destiny and live it. That's kind of a high standard but thats what it means to me. Everyone has a dream, or a calling, something they're good at, and if you enjoy what you're good at, that's what you should do. Life doesn't mean find some dead end job, hate going to work, hate where you're at in the social ladder (I learned about that in sociology today). Everyone has a talent. So find that talent and live it as long as you enjoy it.

Prompt #2: Are you afraid of death?
Yes. I'm not a religious person, I don't believe in a greater being so where do people like me go after death? I don't want to stare into blackness. I'm afriad to sleep dreamlessly because I hate that darkness feeling behind your eyelids. It just freaks me out.

Prompt #3: Why do you do what you do?
This could be taken different ways. I'm going with it as kind of like hobby wise, why I do the hobbies that I do. First off, I love writing. It's my passion more so than a hobby. I do want to be a famous writer some day. I want to be the next Stephen King just because my mind is that grotesque at some points. People actually tell me that I will be the next Stephen King or Edgar Allen Poe. I hope one day it comes true.

That's enough prompts for now because the generator keeps telling me that the prompt is tired. So I'll let it rest over night.

During my blog writing, I was also in the midst of talking to someone else on instant messenger. We got into one of our usual fights and she's pissed me off so now I'm in a shitty mood.

I'm not posting a song or anything because now I dont feel like it. YouTube your own song.

Good night.

Weird.

Last night I had a weird dream ...

I was at the mall and I was walking by Game Stop when I saw that, apparently, the new DSi is out. So I walked in and bought it with the money I didn't have. I opened it, and the box is suppose to like .. make an applause and cheering kind of noise, but this box did not. So I was upset but I still pulled it out to play. I hated it. So I tried to take it back to the store, right? Yeah. I tried to return it because I hated it and I told the owner (which, in my dream, was Mike Myers, aka Austin Powers) and he was like "Why are you returning it?" and I says "Well, I wasn't going to. I was going to give it to my aunt to give her son for his birthday." and he says "You know that if you do that, my company loses that money." which I don't understand that part.. so I says "I know, that's why I came back. To return it to get my money back and my aunt can come buy it herself." so he says "Alright. I'll return it, no questions asked." So I returned the thing. But weirdly, I returned it at Wal-Mart ... not Game Stop. Anyway. Then suddenly, my dream cuts to a war type thing. The manager dude I was talking to and his security guards were suddenly in a war with the manager of Game Stop and his security guards. WEIRD. All over the DSi cuz Game Stop wanted it back of course but Wal-Mart guy said no. And then somehow, I ended up in the hospital with my mom (the one who passed away, not my new/technically my mom mom) and I was complaining about how much I hated the DSi. Then, AGAIN, suddenly the scene changes and my mom plus my new mom plus Brian were all in the living room of my dorm. Brian was complaining that he wanted his phone which he left with me to charge overnight (that's actually a true story, about his phone) so I gave it to him and he left.

Then I woke up.

And wondered what all this shit meant.

So, I googled.

DEAD
To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. You may suffer material loss. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in you life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it.

To see and talk with your dead parents in your dreams, represents your fears of losing them or your way of coping with the loss. You may want that last opportunity to say your final good-byes to them.

How sad...

WAR
To dream of a war, signifies disorder and chaos in your waking life You are experiencing some internal conflict or emotional struggle which is tearing you up inside. Alternatively, the dream also indicates that you are being overly aggressive or that you are not being assertive enough. Perhaps you need to be prepared to put up a fight in some area of your life. On a more direct level, the dream may be reflection of current wars around the world.

That's actually quite true.

VIDEO GAMES
To dream that you are playing a video game, represents your ability to manipulate others into doing what you want them to do. Alternatively, it suggests that you are trying to escape and not confront the stress and problems in your real life.

Hm.

ACTOR/ACTRESS
To see an actor or actress in your dream, represents your pursuit for pleasure. Your admiration of a particular celebrity may lead to a desire to have some of their physical or personality traits. Consider also who this actor/actress is and what characteristics you associate with him or her. These may be the same characteristics that you need to acknowledge or incorporate into yourself.

I'm not really sure about that one ^^^ but I used it anyway cuz Mike Myers is an actor.. I don't see myself as anything like Mike Myers.. If someone else does, let me know how ..

But yeah. Weird dream.

On another note, I started a new class today: Microsoft Outlook. Yep. We didn't do a whole lot because not all of us remembered to get the book from the book store yet. Which I need to go do sometime before Wednesday.

Not a whole lot more to talk about. I still have my cold which I think is turning into an ear infection because today, I'm right-side deaf. And my ear hurts like a lot. I'm about ready to call my dad and ask. We'll see how it is tomorrow.

Anyway.

Inspired by my dream, here's my song of the day and part of my belief system.



I thought the beginning was kinda funny. But true song. Very true.

I might be back to post later, we'll see. I'm not sure... but quite possibly.

Have a great day!

Easter Break

So I've had a pretty awesome Easter break/week.

Backing up to Thursday.

By Thursday, I started getting a very sore throat and my voice was starting to slowly fade into the unknown world of where ever lost voices go. But I was still alright. After lunch I met Chase at the mall for like ... less than an hour? Something like that. I had a milkshake. Because it soothed my sore throat. Then he had to go to class... so I followed him to campus and waited patiently in the student union. I read the newspaper. Then he got out of class like .. within ten minutes of even being there and then I followed him to somewhere to declare a minor in something. Yup. Then we decided to go somewhere so I drove us, considering my car was a LOT closer, to Target where I bought a white chocolate bunny. It was delicious. Then we pretty much called it a day. OH we went to hastings too. THEN we called it a day.

FRIDAY I met up with Chase and the Bamboo Buffet (awesome chinese restaurant) for lunch after his only class. Then... we went to Best Buy for a minute and he got a nice fancy camera. Then we went to his house where we ate cookies, played with his dogs and watched "Yes Man" and "Role Models". Then we called it a day. Oh, by Friday, my sore throat was getting worse and my voice was even more gone. Sucks.

Cuz Saturday I had to work. With a very sore throat and no voice. You don't even know how many times people had to say "What'd you say?" It's majorly frustrating. So I took some Benedryl when I got home and passed out around 9 ish..

And today, being Easter, Happy Easter by the way, my dad and his wife and I went to Wichita to visit my (great) aunt and my uncle. We had a nice dinner which we left down there. Pssh. Maybe I WANTED SOME. But it's ok cuz I didnt. Today I woke up sick. Like. With a cold. Still have a sore throat and no voice but now I have a runny nose and a headache. FML. That's a fun site by the way. www.fmylife.com AND www.lmylife.com Check it out. Do it.

This post is too short.

Which is why I'm going to talk about something Chase and I started talking about one day.

What if ...

TEENAGERS ruled the world?

Not kids. Teenagers.

Chase thinks that the entire world should shut down, like cut off electricity, for an hour a day. That's actually not bad because we could save money doing that. He also declares mandatory naps everyday no matter where you are.

I think, if teenagers ruled the world, there would be virtual rock bands, virtual sport games/tournaments/whatever, and homework would be asexual so it would do itself leaving us teenagers more time to manage the world.

For the record. I declare myself Queen of the United Kingdom. THAT'S MINE.

I have a slight fetish for anything British. That's gonna be my next t-shirt by the way.

If you've never seen the Reba show, you sincerely should.



This is Reba singing her song "I'm A Survivor" with Kelly Clarkson and Melissa Peterman who plays Barbra Jean on the Reba show. I love that video. I love Barbra Jean hehe.

But anyway. That's my song of the day, by the way. I'm A Survivor by Reba McEntire. I like this better than the real video. If you want the real video, its called YouTube.

Have a great week!

Erm.

Ok, so. Not a whole lot is going on. I dont know why I'm posting. Maybe it's because Chase wants me to post more about my personal life than about funny quotes. Nothing really is that fascinating to put into a post and I told him that but he said do more stuff. More specifically, MAKE stuff to do.

It's a great day outside. About damn time, Kansas. Honestly. It snowed a few days ago. SNOW. IN FUCKING APRIL. Pardon my language but SNOW IN APRIL?!?!?! WTF. But anyway, yeah. It's a beautiful day. Approximately 65 degrees, few clouds, sun's wide awake. It's awesome. So I'm sitting outside enjoying it. Sun's a little bright shining off my computer but yay for transitional glasses.

Starting today, my school is on an easter break. We only get thursday, friday and the weekend off but thats 2 more days off than most of my friends. Like Chase. But he's right. I'll be bored. My boss can't put me on the schedule so I'm planning on just doing my homework. I have five papers due before my trip to Dallas May 6.

Speaking of that. Ya'll remember when I went to state for a business competition right? And I made it to nationals? Yep. May 6 is when we're leaving. We have to leave Highland by 5 am in order to make it to Kansas City (KC) to catch our flight. It's gonna be my first plane ride. I'm pretty excited actually but a little nervous at the same time. But we'll see how it goes. Luckily I'm not the only one who's never been on a plane before. As long as I'm not stuck in the middle seat, I'll be alright. I heard that's the worst place to sit... I'm hoping for a window seat so I can take awesome pictures of the clouds and stuff... We'll see how it goes.

As I sit here in the sun, I keep thinking that I'm getting sunburnt cuz it's kinda hot.

Anyway.

I'm not sure what else to say.

OH.

My friends Jody, Heather, and Marianne and I went to walmart last night to get some stuff to make tacos for Taco Tuesday. No big deal right? Wrong. As soon as we walked in the door, the door greeter was like "I bet you lovely ladies would like a sticker." Hell yeah. Jody's face was so priceless. Both her and Heather were like "Yeah! We want a sticker!" Marianne and I just kinda laughed. Jody's almost 21 years old, Heather's 18, and Marianne and I are 19 and we all got one of those yellow smiley faces. Yep. I put mine on the back of my phone so I can support walmart smiley faces all over the world.

So we had tacos and cookies and Megan (different Megan of course) brought us pinneapple cupcakes. Yum. Then we played Dirty Minds. Heather won... jerk. Winning just proves your mind is not dirty enough. HAHA. But it was great.

Ok. NOW I dont know what to talk about. So, without further adieu...



My friends love this song and so do I. I love Journey.

Have a great week!

Damn.

So I got word that I blogged while drunk off my ass. I even had to look and I was slightly amazed at myself for pulling an all time low. Drunk blogging. Stick that in the books of stupid things drunks do. So yeah. With that, not much to blog about, considering I said it all last night.

A couple fun texts I found in my phone.. again, while drunk...

Im playin pac man on the ceiling.

Fuck is hot. Like wild animal sex.

Drinkin while on the second floor of some other building than your own is a no no unless you plan on stayin.

And, from texting these people I texted last night, I found out that I say fuck a lot when I'm trashed.

Good times tho, good times.

So, continuing with the night.

I don't even remember coming back to my dorm last night but I sure woke up this morning, under the covers still in my jeans. At least I managed to take my shoes off. But, I do remember that I was laying in my bed, or what I thought was the floor, my room door was open still and my roommates walked in, took one look at my wasted ass and laughed.

Haha.

That's all I remember. No song right now cuz I have a headache like major and don't feel like lookin for one.